I've been dealing with a lot for someone trying to recover from a massive burnout that has been going on for years. Health issues, financial burdens all while trying to create new businesses and income streams.
A government treating me like their personal ATM doesn't really help here - in fact, this has been a big contributor to my years of burnout. Unfortunately, as someone not working as an employee you're seen in this country as an infinite source of money going straight to the government it seems. So while I barely made any money since my freelance teaching income got destroyed, I still got cashed into oblivion. Something here is seriously going wrong IMHO.
There's a holy trinity of 3 institutions that have been gaslighting me for years and now I have reached the point that I'm done with all their bullshit. I'm not their personal ATM anymore that can be cashed like there's no tomorrow while there's no more money left on my side and things had been so bad that I could barely afford groceries for a while.
But here I am, now handing this over to a pro - turning the system that has turned against me, reversing it and turning it against them. Cause no one is going to mess with me any longer.
All of this government overreach gave me anxiety and depression for so many years but now I have reached the point of finally not accepting it any longer. And the sad part is, if money wasn't an issue I wouldn't even be in this position. Then those governmental institutions would have no chance to ever gaslight me the way they've been doing it for years now.
And then this government wonders why entrepreneurs move abroad or at least find legal ways to run their businesses from abroad. Well, you reap what you sow is all I'm saying here. And I'm going to do the same thing once I can!
At least I found healthy ways to cope with all that stress. Writing morning pages is my favorite part, it clears my mind and helps me to process things that are spiraling in my busy brain. I can recommend this, my life changed so much for the better ever since I started this.
Sharing a screenshot here with one of the summaries about my ongoing battle for almost a decade now with German bureaucracy. So you get a glimpse of what I've been dealing with for way too long now...
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